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What If I Had Never Met You?

Posted by The Thinking Other Woman on May 30, 2022 at 2:35 AM

A rhetorical question, since the person in question has not visited in more than a month. I'm pretty sure he read "Let's Just Kiss And Say Goodbye," read every blog he had ever wanted to read, and, as requested, left here forever.



I'm not going to complain. I was just in this constant cycle of checking here, seeing he had been here, being thrilled he was still here ... and checking here, seeing he had been here, and being thrilled he was still here. For ten minutes, half an hour ... and then what? Nothing else, just that. What is that, really? Nothing. Just a slender, gossamer filament of hope for something that was never going to happen, and longing for something that would never be. Which I would keep doing for however many years he kept coming ... until one day he dropped off the radar, and I would just be miserably sad. Crushed that now it really was all over, I had no idea what had happened, and NOW I had to accept for real that nothing would ever happen other than that.



It's no way to live. Might as well just go ahead and cut the cord now. There was just nothing more to be gained from hanging onto this teeny, tiny thread of us in each other's lives. 


WE'RE NOT IN EACH OTHER'S LIVES, AND WE NEVER WILL BE EVER AGAIN. MIGHT AS WELL JUST ACCEPT THAT.


So, I did. Having done that, What if I had never met him?


(this is a work in progress. it's almost 3 am.)


Categories: Life Lessons, The Twin Flame Journey