The Thinking Other Woman

Dear Angels, Metatron, Spirit Guides, Whoever Is Around Who Can Help: 

I've been told to ask for blessings, so I am.

We've got 44 days left, here. If it really is true that he's unhappy, that he misses me, that he wishes he'd left, that he's sorry he stayed, but...

It's safe to say this journey is over. 

This person's announced his intention never, ever to return. I've been through the whole thing ... the loss of a cherished dream, realizing where I was scared, selfish, and using someone, hoping for someone to change who couldn't change (at least it was only eight years this time instead of thirty-eight), growing through the loss of youth and taking on the mant...

So, after eight years of internet lurking, the emotional affair I participated in for four months ages ago has finally drawn to a close.

(Actually, there's forty-six days left before this cycle is officially over and the rest of my life starts. In that time, Jupiter will have gone over, and that will be the end. But I already know how it ends. Someone who doesn't even com...

Her:

Jupiter square itself: A tendency toward excess. Tests your understanding of the world in that if you have gotten overconfident, you could have financial (or other) problems.

Jupiter square Uranus: A sudden change in life direction or a sudden change in fortune. It coul...

Although astrology sort of hamstrung me in getting over this relationship (for, oh, EIGHT YEARS), I still value it for the perspective it helped me reach on not only this but the entirety of my life and why I've spent so very much of it unhappy.

To Explain ...

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I know that this is you.

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*Sorry, y'all. This blog is getting wonky, with lapses of formatting I can't fix.

"The end really weighed heavily on my heart. I would have done anything to save my ex. She didn't know how special she really was."

--anonymous poster on the internet.

So, it's finally time to give up.

It really is t...

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https://medium.com/mystic-minds/what-does-telepathy-with-your-twin-flame-feel-like-2b1d7da34a5b" target="_blank">https://medium.com/mystic-minds/what-does-telepathy-with-your-twin-flame-feel-like-2b1d7da34a5b

                      Photo by Andrik Langfield on Unsplash

Oh, the misery of falling in love with someone married. Gripped with anxiety, some of us turn to esoteric (and some say, fraudulent) sources of information, reassurance … or perhaps just self-soothing.

Since I've been on here writing about infidelity, many have chosen to throw stones, informing me most helpfully that the reason I write is to make excuses for myself, and for filthy adulterers like the folks I comment on, publish here, or write about.

Wrong!

The bad thing about learning astrology while in the middle of a third-party situation is, you don't always know what you need to know when you need to know it.

Years ago, when I first looked at the transits for this two-year period that's about to start, I only saw the ones that reflected what I wanted to see. I just KNEW that woman was never going to change, so of course he'd take the transits that ju...

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https://medium.com/@jamesmsama/12-signs-youre-with-an-emotionally-mature-man-7c2e86dcfbd6" target="_blank">https://medium.com/@jamesmsama/12-signs-youre-with-an-emotionally-mature-man-7c2e86dcfbd6

On a related note, I have to share this.

The author is Kaki Okumura, who shares healthy eating advice by virtue of being Japanese-American. This is from her newsletter, which you can join here: https://expert-composer-5026.ck.page/82d0c904ef" target="_blank">https://expert-composer-5026.ck.page/82d0c904ef  (The drawings are also by Kaki. She is also an artist.)

Dear You (and you know who you are),

As you know, I dabble a lot in tarot and astrology. (When you're anxious to know the future of a relationship, that's a temptation.)


What I'm being told right now is that we have no future. (Well ... astrology says we do, and taro...

Group One. 

Basically, if you want to "level up, someday in the future when I feel more ready," then you need to have a plan to get there. It's not going to happen when you're peeing in your Depends in the nursing home.

Time Grows Short.

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The affair's been over almost eight years. I haven't even seen his face in over seven. We haven't spoken in five.

So, what the hell is UP with this???

Since I wrote "Let's Just Kiss and Say Goodbye" in April of t...

So, from the way this all has shaken out, it would be tempting for many to say astrology is bunk because we didn't end up together.

Ah, not so.

Sorry to burst the skeptic bubble, but wayyy too many things did happen that were in our transits to be coincidence. Astrology paints wayyy