The Thinking Other Woman

Yeah.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7yPeUt8Kifg" target="_blank">http://https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7yPeUt8Kifg

The thing about tarot readings is, whether you believe in them or not, they make you think. 

The one I just posted talks about my life being like scorched earth for a very long time. Boy, is THAT ever correct. It also talks about the idea that thinking some other person was supposed to come in and be everything that makes a fulfilling life ... maybe not being the best ...

It's safe to say this journey is over. 

This person's announced his intention never, ever to return. I've been through the whole thing ... the loss of a cherished dream, realizing where I was scared, selfish, and using someone, hoping for someone to change who couldn't change (at least it was only eight years this time instead of thirty-eight), growing through the loss of youth and taking on the mant...

So, after eight years of internet lurking, the emotional affair I participated in for four months ages ago has finally drawn to a close.

(Actually, there's forty-six days left before this cycle is officially over and the rest of my life starts. In that time, Jupiter will have gone over, and that will be the end. But I already know how it ends. Someone who doesn't even com...

I had posted this earlier, but I mixed natal things in the charts together with the transit that is about to come through: Jupiter hitting the apex of my yod and boomeranging his. I keep trying to pound and pound and pound into my soul that IT'S TIME TO GIVE UP. I know there's no hope here, and I'm about to receive incontrovertible proof. We all know twin flames just teach horrible, painful lessons and don't work out. Time to swallow that for goo...

I'm glad I stumbled onto Medium, not only as a way to make extra money, but as a way to learn. I've learned so much from other people who tell their real life stories about infidelity and heartbreak there. (Word to the wise: Number of people I've seen on there who started out as an affair and ended up happily married? TWO.)

Here lately a certain (Medium) famous couple is...

"Then said Almitra, speak to us of love. And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said, When love beckons to you, follow him. Though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you yield to him, Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you. And when he speaks to you, believe him, Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north win...

https://medium.com/@jamesmsama/never-make-your-partner-feel-these-12-things-b4e78be08d46" target="_blank">https://medium.com/@jamesmsama/never-make-your-partner-feel-these-12-things-b4e78be08d46

https://medium.com/@rodr4860/the-reason-no-one-likes-online-dating-is-simple-437bf16222be" target="_blank">https://medium.com/@rodr4860/the-reason-no-one-likes-online-dating-is-simple-437bf16222be

*Sorry, y'all. This blog is getting wonky, with lapses of formatting I can't fix.

"The end really weighed heavily on my heart. I would have done anything to save my ex. She didn't know how special she really was."

--anonymous poster on the internet.

So, it's finally time to give up.

It really is t...

No, this isn't MY married man, but it is the ex-affair partner of a woman I follow on Medium.

https://medium.com/@Tullia/after-the-affair-ends-the-married-mans-perspective-afa8677cc31c" target="_blank">https://medium.com/@Tullia/after-the-affair-ends-the-married-mans-perspective-afa8677cc31c

And then we wonder why people have affairs ...

https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/childhood-emotional-neglect/202212/what-does-emotional-neglect-look-in-marriage" target="_blank">https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/childhood-emotional-neglect/202212/what-does-emotional-neglect-look-in-marriage

https://medium.com/@Tullia/i-believe-that-most-affairs-are-exit-affairs-8664a498828b" target="_blank">https://medium.com/@Tullia/i-believe-that-most-affairs-are-exit-affairs-8664a498828b

https://medium.com/@nickwignall/4-psychological-reasons-why-you-have-low-self-worth-e03a44305076" target="_blank">https://medium.com/@nickwignall/4-psychological-reasons-why-you-have-low-self-worth-e03a44305076

https://medium.com/adam-rebecca-murauskas/how-people-turn-their-childhood-trauma-into-wildly-successful-lucrative-careers-33f7aba232d0" target="_blank">https://medium.com/adam-rebecca-murauskas/how-people-turn-their-childhood-trauma-into-wildly-successful-lucrative-careers-33f7aba232d0

https://medium.com/illumination/5-traits-of-dysfunctional-parents-d1e1bff5b364" target="_blank">https://medium.com/illumination/5-traits-of-dysfunctional-parents-d1e1bf...

https://medium.com/the-conscious-way/12-things-you-need-to-know-if-you-grew-up-in-a-narcissistic-family-9e95335be5cc" target="_blank">https://medium.com/the-conscious-way/12-things-you-need-to-know-if-you-grew-up-in-a-narcissistic-family-9e95335be5cc

There's always a way.

Since I've been on here writing about infidelity, many have chosen to throw stones, informing me most helpfully that the reason I write is to make excuses for myself, and for filthy adulterers like the folks I comment on, publish here, or write about.

Wrong!

https://www.mariemurphyphd.com/post/how-good-can-you-stand-it?postId=9e65b7b8-8fc3-4e90-b42a-de7ac8d5de7e&utm_campaign=935a6a55-cbf2-4385-9f7c-0dc06755d7c7&utm_source=so&utm_medium=mail&utm_content=285dcd77-42d8-4d47-8148-93c8045eb3e1&cid=3eb97bf7-5fe5-4471-b923-bc3513e8f867" target="_blank">https://www.mariemurphyphd.com/post/how-good-can-you-stand-it?postId=9e65b7b8-8fc3-4e90-b42a-de7ac8d5de7e&utm_campaign=935a6a55-cbf2-4385-9f7c-0dc06755d7c7&utm_...

The bad thing about learning astrology while in the middle of a third-party situation is, you don't always know what you need to know when you need to know it.

Years ago, when I first looked at the transits for this two-year period that's about to start, I only saw the ones that reflected what I wanted to see. I just KNEW that woman was never going to change, so of course he'd take the transits that ju...