The Thinking Other Woman

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Jupiter square itself: A tendency toward excess. Tests your understanding of the world in that if you have gotten overconfident, you could have financial (or other) problems.

Jupiter square Uranus: A sudden change in life direction or a sudden change in fortune. It coul...

I had posted this earlier, but I mixed natal things in the charts together with the transit that is about to come through: Jupiter hitting the apex of my yod and boomeranging his. I keep trying to pound and pound and pound into my soul that IT'S TIME TO GIVE UP. I know there's no hope here, and I'm about to receive incontrovertible proof. We all know twin flames just teach horrible, painful lessons and don't work out. Time to swallow that for goo...

I'm glad I stumbled onto Medium, not only as a way to make extra money, but as a way to learn. I've learned so much from other people who tell their real life stories about infidelity and heartbreak there. (Word to the wise: Number of people I've seen on there who started out as an affair and ended up happily married? TWO.)

Here lately a certain (Medium) famous couple is...

***I put this up ON THE FOURTEENTH. Yet the website insists on putting the 15th as the date. WTF???

Venus is sitting on the apex of my yod today, to be followed by Jupiter at the end of April.

Do I expect anything?? Nahhhhh.

Although astrology sort of hamstrung me in getting over this relationship (for, oh, EIGHT YEARS), I still value it for the perspective it helped me reach on not only this but the entirety of my life and why I've spent so very much of it unhappy.

To Explain ...

After I made my post about the astrology of Jupiter around April 27-29, I realized one thing: I should have looked for supporting transits to our Davison. Wonder if there are any?


So, without further ado:


Sun and Mercury conj Moon.

Mars sextile Sun and Moon (although these are separatin...

This will probably be the last transit analysis I will do on these three charts. There won't be any need to do another one.

Astrology suggests there is about to be a make-or-break turning point in the situation. On April 27th, Jupiter will exactly hit the tip of my yod, which means it will exactly boomerang his yod. (Actually this period starts on the 22nd and goes through May 1st.)

                      Photo by Andrik Langfield on Unsplash

Oh, the misery of falling in love with someone married. Gripped with anxiety, some of us turn to esoteric (and some say, fraudulent) sources of information, reassurance … or perhaps just self-soothing.

On the 24th of January, it will be a full eight years since we first said I Love You in emails to one another. Every year on this date, I used to put a heart up on my old Facebook profile we corresponded on. I did that on his birthday, too. In case he ever went there and saw them. I don't think I will this year. 

For me, hate to say it but it's been eight years of hell.

And Why Was I Supposed to Exist?

Don't get me wrong, I know why we exist. We are supposed to be born helpless human babies on Planet Earth, get messed up and deeply psychologically wounded by parents who were wounded themselves, and then spend the rest of our lives consciously growing ourselves up and fixing the wounds we grew up with.

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The affair's been over almost eight years. I haven't even seen his face in over seven. We haven't spoken in five.

So, what the hell is UP with this???

Since I wrote "Let's Just Kiss and Say Goodbye" in April of t...

So, from the way this all has shaken out, it would be tempting for many to say astrology is bunk because we didn't end up together.

Ah, not so.

Sorry to burst the skeptic bubble, but wayyy too many things did happen that were in our transits to be coincidence. Astrology paints wayyy

Edit: 11/11/22. Yep. He was here. About three days after this, but still. Nobody else would go directly to this ONE post as if he'd bookmarked it.

Some call this date "the eleven-eleven portal." Trivia.

So after something astounding like I just wrote about in the last blog (who would expect THAT after almost eight years??), I knew there had to be some interesting astrology attached, and ... there was.

Transits to the Davison for 10/16/22: Mercury return. North Node conj Moon. Moon square Mercury. Jupiter opp Mercury. Sun and Venus are about to conj Mars but are still 2-4 degrees away. Venus opp Jupiter. Saturn return. Uranus square Satu...

So, I wrote the previous entry, and I was very sad. I cried and wished more than anything he would come back and see that. I wanted him to know how I felt.

IT HAPPENED.

Like, almost immediately. I looked at Google Analytics, and there was an Android phone, coming ...

Stay true to your inner authority

Valid during many months: During this time, you increasingly draw on defense mechanisms that you have acquired in the past to protect yourself from injury. Perhaps old wounds are now making themselves felt again and you are once more confronted with your individual inadequacies. The temptation is great to react with the usual defense patterns, but this does not resolve the pain. It doesnʹt help you to constantly justify yourself or make accusations...

1.) Getting the astrological topic out of the way first:

So here's what happened, y'all: This past week, especially centering on the 17th, many transits favoring communication were had by all. Despite one particular card reader nattering on about how many of us were likely to hear from a runner, I had my doubts, du...

Might as well talk about the astrology of the next three years. There’s a big split in the transits for all three people in our triangle that starts right about now. Make no mistake, the major period of action doesn’t start until this time next year, and it goes for two years … but, if no groundwork for that gets laid (groundwork like, I’m 64 years old and this is my last chance to bail if I really want a different kind...